August 10, 2017

I Held and Released You

I remember you today on the day that you died.
August 10, 2017

Journey

Since we last spoke two people told me their moms died. It happens all the time, but each one seems so special
August 10, 2017

Simultaneously Small & Huge

I was invited to Camille's birthday party
August 10, 2017

As if I am Holding His Hand

I just found my father’s keys. The ones he gave me
August 10, 2017

Why are you yelling at your mother?

I can’t vouch for why you are yelling at this moment, but I know how you feel. You are trying to be heard. She can't hear. If you are a daughter, it is a scientific fact that raising your high-pitched voice won’t get you heard if your mother is old enough to have sensory-neural hearing loss in the high frequency range. If you are a son, well she might be more likely to tune you in.
August 10, 2017

Bed Bathing for Childless Daughters

I have no idea why, but in retrospect I anticipated that the point at which Mary could no longer be put in the shower would be the most important milestone for me in her decline. I had no problem with the concept or actuality of changing diapers, but I couldn't imagine getting her clean enough with a plastic tub of water and wash cloth.